Tuesday, June 14, 2016
DU Carillon Will Join Other Bell Towers Across the Nation in Orlando Memorial
On Orlando, Rainbows, Wyoming, and Pride
By Todd CraigMy husband and I left this past weekend to road trip to South Dakota to retrieve our 9 year old son who had spent some time after school let out in my hometown of Rapid City with his grandparents. As we inched our way up north on a maddeningly backed-up I-25, hours seemed like days. Our frustration built. The first leg of our drive to Cheyenne existed as a normal two and a half hour drive away, and yet after three hours we weren’t even close to the state border.
There’s something about sitting and staring at brake lights that renders us our most powerless. We grip the wheel a little bit tighter. We crawl around in our heads letting emotions spin. We begin to see others next to us as opponents or obstacles.
By the time our stop-and-go traffic lurched past Fort Collins, my body had physically tightened, and my brow had furrowed. This road trip’s beginning had warped and twisted itself into something somewhere between awful and torturous. I wanted justification for it all.
Finally after hitting the Wyoming border and skirting one last set of brake lights through a construction zone, traffic eased. The glorious 80 mile per hour speed limit in Wyoming took over. We sped on.
In the distance, we watched one of those typical prairie rainstorms so common to Wyoming and the upper Midwest as it thundered eastward. Nature has a way, especially in these wild, empty, and vast spaces of America, of asserting both her power and beauty in ways that can stir the soul and frighten one senseless. The towering clouds with ominous gray blurs of rain at the bottom looked to be just beyond our path. We felt grateful knowing that we would likely not cross its path. The road was empty and clear, and my speeds climbed faster and faster.
Until they stopped altogether.
As you wind your way past the gas station town of Chugwater, Wyoming, there’s a vast open expanse of prairie just to the east dotted with a few scraggly trees and buttes in the distance. It’s a quintessential sight in the Wyoming landscape, both perfect in its wild beauty and in its fulfillment of one’s expectations of how Wyoming should look.
We’ve driven past this place a hundred times without so much as a second thought.
But tonight, nature had other ideas. Caught somewhere between the sunset and the thunderstorm, nature, Wyoming, and life had conspired to, in this place, paint the sky with the most wonderous of rainbows. We gasped, open-mouthed, at the sight of the most empty and rugged landscape lit by the setting sun and completely overshadowed by the blackened storm clouds. In one shot the view captured not just the darkness of the skies, but the raw green beauty of the earth, and framed it in the pure, glorious color of the rainbow.
Cars pulled over. Old ranchers in their battered Ford trucks stopped and gaped. Rushed tourists exited the highway and piled out of their cars with cell phone cameras in hand.
My husband and I stopped, too. We snapped photos like everyone else. We took it in. We had no choice. No one did. Doing 80 miles per hour past this would have been sacrilege.
The road trip, which began with four hours of man-made frustration, anger, and impatience, led us to this place. This moment. This perfection. It was the rainbow of a lifetime. It thrilled everyone there. It inspired people from all walks of life to pull over and take in big sights and think big thoughts. For a moment we all stopped and shared its beauty.
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Two days later, we would wake up to news of the Orlando massacre. Surely, life couldn’t get uglier or more awful than this. My emotions vacillated from sadness to anger to rage and back to sadness again as Sunday wore painfully on and the news reports grew increasingly worse.
There will be lots to sort out over the upcoming weeks beginning with the heart-breaking eulogies for the dead and our facing and mourning their loss. We will discuss again the necessity of gun restrictions. We will reflect upon about how we treat our minorities – queer, ethnic, and otherwise. We will honestly look our leaders and want-to-be leaders in the eye and ask them if they act out of love and seek to unify us or do they seek to play on our fears and build walls between us. We will hopefully move beyond thoughts and prayers and head straight to action towards building a more perfect union and a better country for our children and ourselves.
This morning, as I scrolled through my facebook feed, I came across an article listing the names of the murdered dead that shared bits and pieces of some of the victim’s stories. I’ve forced myself to read each one in an effort to rationalize the tragedy and to remember the fallen. The article featured a photograph centered on a tiny rainbow pride flag planted at a makeshift memorial for the dead, a poignant picture using the symbol of our gay pride as the symbol of our collective mourning. And I kept thinking back to that Wyoming rainbow – the play of light and dark, the dance of emptiness and beauty, and the randomness of time, place, and moment.
But mostly I remembered about how that Wyoming rainbow stopped us all in our tracks and made us look up. Of how it forced us to reconcile ourselves and our humanity to the vastness and power of nature and life.
And maybe, for the first time in my adult queer life, I appreciate the true strength and beauty of the pride rainbow. I hope that it, like its natural counterpart, will inspire us to stop together this day and night and look up. That the pride rainbow in 2016 should spur us to remember the injustices we’ve suffered in the past, the lives that we have lost, the beautiful people we have grown to become in this moment, and the bright future we want to forge together.
Such is the nature and power of rainbows, I think.
And such is the nature and power of Pride.
Here TV Celebrates Pride Month with Free Content Available on Comcast XFINITY
“Here TV is proud to celebrate Pride Month with XFINITY as they continue their commitment to providing the very best in LGBT programming,” said John Mongiardo, SVP of Programming and Broadcast Operations at Here TV. “Here TV and Xfinity have a long-standing, collaborative relationship and have provided a premium experience by offering the most authentic, diverse and entertaining LGBT programming across XFINITY’s innovative platforms.”
Comcast also invites customers to visit the XFINITY LGBT collection during the “freeview” to browse Here TV’s wide collection of award-winning LGBT programming. The XFINITY LGBT collection curates a wide variety of LGBT films, television shows, documentaries and, for a limited time, subscribers will have free access to Here TV’s titles on XFINITY’s cable services.
“Comcast is thrilled to share Here TV programming with our customers as a free preview, in continuation of Comcast’s commitment to the LGBT community. Our long-standing partnership with Here TV brings entertaining LGBT programming with stories that describe the richness and diversity of the human experience. There are so many films and series to enjoy with the XFINITY LGBT Collection that it is hard to highlight just a few, but suffice it to say there is something wonderful to watch for everyone,” stated Jean-Claire Fitschen, Executive Director, Multicultural Consumer Services at Comcast.
Here TV programming available during the “freeview” week includes:
· Modd Couples, an original game show hosted by David Millbern that features two couples – one gay and one straight – battling it out over three rounds to prove how well they know one another to win fabulous prizes.
· Hush Up Sweet Charlotte, tells the story of an aging, reclusive Southern belle with a horrifying hidden family secret. While descending into madness, she must fight to save her family's historic plantation from divisive interlopers with their own agendas.
· Alec Mapa: Baby Daddy, actor and comedian Alec Mapa explores the challenges of adopting a five-year-old foster child with his husband in this hilarious and heartfelt film version of his one-man show. The film includes behind-the-scenes footage of his family's home life on a busy show day.
· A Year of Pride with Taylor Barrett, actress, filmmaker, and comedian Taylor Barrett takes a look back at a monumental year of LGBT pride. Join Taylor as she conducts interviews and provides insight into the legalization of marriage equality, LGBT acceptance, and what's next on the agenda.
· Guidance, David Gold, a 36-year-old pathologically immature former child actor, has never been able to get over high school. Recently diagnosed with skin cancer, unemployed and with nothing left to lose, he fakes his resume and gets a job as a high school guidance counselor. Quickly winning over the students at Grusin High with his laid-back attitude and similar interests, he befriends Jabrielle, a teenaged outcast and soon learns that sometimes you can go too far, especially when it comes to committing a ridiculous crime.
TONIGHT: Talk with Senator Bennet on LGBTQ issues
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During the telephone town hall meeting, you’ll have the opportunity to hear briefly from One Colorado and Senator Bennet – and then the discussion will open up to questions from you. It's easy to join the live meeting. Sign up at the link and you will get a call tonight. Simply answer that call to join the live tele-town hall.
United in Love, Orlando
Join Eugene Ebner as he facilitates this call for love with featured guests: master karma healer Abby Rohrer and parents of LGBTQ youth coach Susan Berland.
As we process through our feelings of sadness, anger and disbelief over what occurred in Orlando this past Sunday, it is natural for immense fear and anxiety to overcome us. Now is the time more than ever to come together as one in love, begin to heal and create peace in our lives.
This will be an opportunity for each of us to experience healing and begin to release fear and anxiety that no longer serves us.
Call (605) 562-3140. Guest Access Code 789251#. This 90-minute call welcomes all ages, diverse backgrounds and faiths.
As we process through our feelings of sadness, anger and disbelief over what occurred in Orlando this past Sunday, it is natural for immense fear and anxiety to overcome us. Now is the time more than ever to come together as one in love, begin to heal and create peace in our lives.
This will be an opportunity for each of us to experience healing and begin to release fear and anxiety that no longer serves us.
Call (605) 562-3140. Guest Access Code 789251#. This 90-minute call welcomes all ages, diverse backgrounds and faiths.
Monday, June 13, 2016
Lawyers’ Committee Statement on Mass Shooting in Orlando, Florida
“We stand together with the LGBTQ community, Latino community, young people, and all of those impacted by yesterday’s mass shooting in Florida. Attacking any individual because of their sexual orientation, race or ethnic background is an assault on our collective humanity. And the ease in which the perpetrator of this crime was able to obtain assault weapons, is once again, a dark reminder of the urgent and long overdue reforms needed at the federal and state level to control access to guns in this county.
While the nation searches for answers, we must remain firmly committed to the principles of respect and tolerance that define us as a nation. We must condemn misguided acts of retaliation and do our part to prevent a backlash against our Muslim neighbors.
Our democracy demands that we unite in the pursuit of equality, dignity and freedom that every individual in this country so rightly deserves. We call for vigilance against hate, overdue reform of gun laws and continued peace.”
While the nation searches for answers, we must remain firmly committed to the principles of respect and tolerance that define us as a nation. We must condemn misguided acts of retaliation and do our part to prevent a backlash against our Muslim neighbors.
Our democracy demands that we unite in the pursuit of equality, dignity and freedom that every individual in this country so rightly deserves. We call for vigilance against hate, overdue reform of gun laws and continued peace.”
AIDS Walk Colorado Date Change
The festivities will include the 5K Walk and Run, live entertainment on the main stage, vendors, food trucks, a beer garden, children’s activities in Kiddie Corner, the Diva Dash Stiletto Fun Run, and the 8th annual AIDS Walk Colorado Volleyball Tournament co-sponsored by Colorado Gay Volleyball Association!
Colorado-affiliated panels of the AIDS Memorial Quilt, which commemorates the lives of individuals lost to the disease, will be on display throughout the event in the Cheesman Park Pavilion.
CLICK HERE TO REGISTER TO WALK OR RUN
SOL/BSeedz Statement on Orlando Shootings
From SOL/BSeedz:
We honor and pay tribute to our trans, two spirit, and queer relatives that are now passing on into spirit world. We honor and love you and your relatives. May your spirits feel emboldened when you are reunited with the divine. In lak’ech. Tu eres mi otro yo. You are my other me.*
The lives lost today in Orlando are being used to justify heightened militarization and police presence within this country and abroad. The history of queer and trans communal spaces are rooted in acts of resistance against police brutality and targeted violence by state militarized forces. Police violence continues to be a serious and legitimate concern for LGBTQ people of color. Police violence takes many forms including refusal to take a complaint, harassment, discrimination, profiling, unjustified arrest, physical assault, entrapment, and sexual violence. We refuse to accept suggestions that increased police presence in our queer and trans spaces will improve risks of violence or increase any sense of safety.
We recognize and honor queer and trans Muslims as a part of our community. Islamophobic sentiments in light of the events in Orlando situates Muslims in our community as vulnerable to heightened acts of violence. We know islamophobia and homophobia as the same monster known by different names. The heightened anger and fear towards Muslim individuals and communities erases the lived realities of queer & trans Muslims. We know our liberation to be bound with that of our Muslim brothers and sisters. Si te hago daño a ti, me hago daño a mi.
Moving forward, we call on our Denver community to help us support those experiencing violence in its various forms by sharing the number to our hotline. SOL/BSeedz works directly with LGBTQ communities experiencing and surviving violence. We emphasize our solidarity with the Muslim community and offer our hotline as a resource for reporting and seeking support regarding acts of Islamophobia in addition to any variety of violences.
We honor and pay tribute to our trans, two spirit, and queer relatives that are now passing on into spirit world. We honor and love you and your relatives. May your spirits feel emboldened when you are reunited with the divine. In lak’ech. Tu eres mi otro yo. You are my other me.*
The lives lost today in Orlando are being used to justify heightened militarization and police presence within this country and abroad. The history of queer and trans communal spaces are rooted in acts of resistance against police brutality and targeted violence by state militarized forces. Police violence continues to be a serious and legitimate concern for LGBTQ people of color. Police violence takes many forms including refusal to take a complaint, harassment, discrimination, profiling, unjustified arrest, physical assault, entrapment, and sexual violence. We refuse to accept suggestions that increased police presence in our queer and trans spaces will improve risks of violence or increase any sense of safety.
We recognize and honor queer and trans Muslims as a part of our community. Islamophobic sentiments in light of the events in Orlando situates Muslims in our community as vulnerable to heightened acts of violence. We know islamophobia and homophobia as the same monster known by different names. The heightened anger and fear towards Muslim individuals and communities erases the lived realities of queer & trans Muslims. We know our liberation to be bound with that of our Muslim brothers and sisters. Si te hago daño a ti, me hago daño a mi.
Moving forward, we call on our Denver community to help us support those experiencing violence in its various forms by sharing the number to our hotline. SOL/BSeedz works directly with LGBTQ communities experiencing and surviving violence. We emphasize our solidarity with the Muslim community and offer our hotline as a resource for reporting and seeking support regarding acts of Islamophobia in addition to any variety of violences.
National Gay Media Association statement on Orlando shootings
The National Gay Media Association is stunned at the mass shooting at an
LGBT club in Orlando, Florida. At least 50 people have been killed, and
dozens more injured in the attack.
“Our hearts go out to the entire Orlando community,” said Leo Cusimano, publisher of The Dallas Voice, president of NGMA. “We lend our support to the community of Orlando, and the LGBTQ community nationally, as we all cope with the incredible sadness and anger this tragedy has caused.”
“Individuals in the LGBTQ community have been targeted for violence frequently over the years, but nothing on this scale,” said Tracy Baim, spokesperson for NGMA and publisher of Windy City Times. “We want to encourage the community to show their support by donating to the victims at https://www.gofundme.com/
NGMA, a membership organization of the 12 of the country’s top regional LGBT media, works together to help member newspapers. Orlando’s Watermark newspaper joined NGMA in 2015. See http://www.
“Our hearts go out to the entire Orlando community,” said Leo Cusimano, publisher of The Dallas Voice, president of NGMA. “We lend our support to the community of Orlando, and the LGBTQ community nationally, as we all cope with the incredible sadness and anger this tragedy has caused.”
“Individuals in the LGBTQ community have been targeted for violence frequently over the years, but nothing on this scale,” said Tracy Baim, spokesperson for NGMA and publisher of Windy City Times. “We want to encourage the community to show their support by donating to the victims at https://www.gofundme.com/
NGMA, a membership organization of the 12 of the country’s top regional LGBT media, works together to help member newspapers. Orlando’s Watermark newspaper joined NGMA in 2015. See http://www.
La Gente Unida Responds to Orlando Shooting
Listed below are La Gente Unida replies to the two
questions posed by a reporter doing a story for Univision TV regarding the
killings in Orlando, Florida.
According to the National Coalition of Anti Violence
Programs, a nonprofit organization that tracks violence against LGBT people, violence
has been on the increase – particularly against Transgender people of color.
What's
your / your organization reaction to these events?
As a Chicano/a nonprofit in Denver since 1990, La
Gente Unida stands in solidarity with Latinos, Latinas and other people who are
condemning the mass killings at the gay nightclub in Orlando. Based on police
reports that a “Latino” special social event was taking place at the nightclub
when the murders took place, the Spanish surnames of Latino and Latina LGBT
people probably will be a big part of the list once victims’ names are released
by authorities. Although the killer reportedly told 911 that he was part of the
terrorist organization ISIS, we urge the public to refrain from condemning and marginalizing
all Islamic people just because one self-identified Muslim carried out the
murders.
Do
you think violence against LGBT has increased in this recent year?
One Colorado Statement on Orlando Attacks
A message from One Colorado:
Our hearts and minds are with those in Orlando, Florida.
Lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, and queer night clubs have historically been safe spaces for people facing homophobia and transphobia and it is within these spaces we have organized for civil rights and fought for equality.
This tragedy is a stark reminder that the battle to end violence against LGBTQ people is far from over.
We are shocked and devastated by the horrible shooting that occurred last night and our hearts are with the victims and families who have been impacted by this horrific act of violence targeting the LGBTQ community in Orlando. We cannot let this sensless act of violence drive a wedge between the LGBTQ community and our Muslim allies. The answer to hatred is love and unity, not more hatred.
Our hearts and minds are with those in Orlando, Florida.
Lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, and queer night clubs have historically been safe spaces for people facing homophobia and transphobia and it is within these spaces we have organized for civil rights and fought for equality.
This tragedy is a stark reminder that the battle to end violence against LGBTQ people is far from over.
We are shocked and devastated by the horrible shooting that occurred last night and our hearts are with the victims and families who have been impacted by this horrific act of violence targeting the LGBTQ community in Orlando. We cannot let this sensless act of violence drive a wedge between the LGBTQ community and our Muslim allies. The answer to hatred is love and unity, not more hatred.
We will not allow this to silence the LGBTQ community, or make us go into hiding. You can read our entire statement here.
There are many vigils and events happening across the state. We encourage all those who are able to attend.
Vigils and Support for the Victims of the Orlando Shooting
This
outrageous, senseless act of terror comes during Pride month when LGBTQ
people around the world are celebrating the progress we've made towards
achieving peace and equality for all. It impacts all of us. We need
everyone to be united in the struggle against violence and
discrimination.
GoFundMe Page for Victims of Orlando Shooting
Friday, June 10, 2016
Focus Features Celebrates Loving Day
Focus Features, which will release the new movie Loving this fall, is joining this year’s network of Loving Day celebrations as a day for love and family, coordinated by the Loving Day Project, and Founder Ken Tanabe. Around the globe, people get engaged, married, or gather with their families to honor and remember two people who paved the way for so many.
Loving (), written and directed by Jeff Nichols, tells the story of Richard and Mildred Loving, the real-life couple who inspired Loving Day. The film centers on the courage and commitment of Richard and Mildred (portrayed in the film by Joel Edgerton and Ruth Negga), an interracial couple who married and then spent the next nine years fighting for the right to live as a family in their hometown. Richard and Mildred’s love story and the landmark case has become an inspiration and a foundation for marriage equality ever since. Focus will release Loving (#ThisIsLoving) in select cities on November 4th and then expand it across the country.
The Gay Vegans: Suga Lived
By Dan Hanley
Our sweet Suga passed away yesterday morning. She was 14, and 11 of those years she spent with us.
Mike remembers the day we adopted her like it was yesterday. We were cleaning cages and walking dogs at the Max Fund in Denver and he met Suga. She had been returned three times, each time with some horrid excuse. We would learn soon enough what the truth was. Mike told me that Suga spoke to him. What was I to say, except that if we can also bring home Juliette the Great Dane to foster then I was in.
And so our adventure with Suga began. We learned that she was not potty trained, and that she would only pee on grass. That was tough where we lived, on the side of a mountain in brush and woods. Mike walked and walked her one day until she finally peed, on someone’s lawn! That was the trick.
We both fell immediately in love with her. I remember getting Suga and Juliette out of my car one day after taking them for a hike and before I could get them in the gate Suga looked at Juliette and I said to her “no”, knowing she wanted to take off down the long driveway. She sprinted away, Juliette looked at me and I said “no”, to which she responded by galloping down the driveway to follow Suga. I was right behind them and a couple of minutes, out of breath, caught up to them. Only because they had stopped to sniff.
Suga was, and still is in my heart, the definition of pure love and light. She filled us with love and she gave love to anyone she met.
As a non-profit fundraiser, I have worked for some amazing non-profits. The two where Suga visited the most were a small HIV/AIDS agency, Boulder County AIDS Project, and an agency that serve youth experiencing homelessness, Urban Peak.
I remember Suga loving the BCAP house and running down the stairs from my office to the lobby to greet whoever was coming in the door. She sat on the lap of many a client and visitor and gave her endless love. Imagine coming in to see your case manager or to get an HIV test and having Suga sit on your lap while you wait.
She continued all of this when I arrived at Urban Peak. She loved going to Urban Peak. The young people experiencing homelessness served there adored her and the staff spoiled her. By the end of the day she would be exhausted.
Suga brought joy to us every day. Our lives became so much better because of her. Whether it was a road trip or just a trip to the market, laying on the couch and watching her paw to ask us to keep petting her or just relaxing with her, every second was just perfect. She taught me so much above love, life, family and home.
As far as we could tell she loved California. By the time we moved it was almost a year since she had been diagnosed with congestive heart failure. We knew the day would come, sooner than anything we ever wanted, and did everything we could to keep her heart going. She was on several medications and was doing pretty well. She had episodes, but always bounced back.
Until yesterday.
Today coming home from work I remembered that she would not be throwing her head back while barking to greet me from her perch on the couch. Her perch that gave her a view of her kingdom. She would always greet us as if she hadn’t seen us for days.
In the end, enveloped by me and Mike, she just couldn’t keep on. She was highly stressed trying to just breathe. And so we said goodbye. I sang to her, one of many little songs I would sing to her… “Suga Muga of my dreams…”
Many of you reading this have gone through this same, awful loss. Home is not the same. Coming home can be terrible. One second you can be smiling and the next sobbing. We are crushed and heart-broken. We miss her. The feeling of loss is strong. Knowing she is not just in the next room is terrifying.
The loss is still very new and yet in the midst of the grief I think we both feel a sense of gratitude. I am so incredibly grateful that I was able to know Suga and to have her as part of my life for 11 years. She changed me and helped this broken guy, this guy with a lot of baggage, become even more comfortable with expressing love and to continue to learn about love and compassion.
Thanks for reading.
Our sweet Suga passed away yesterday morning. She was 14, and 11 of those years she spent with us.
Mike remembers the day we adopted her like it was yesterday. We were cleaning cages and walking dogs at the Max Fund in Denver and he met Suga. She had been returned three times, each time with some horrid excuse. We would learn soon enough what the truth was. Mike told me that Suga spoke to him. What was I to say, except that if we can also bring home Juliette the Great Dane to foster then I was in.
And so our adventure with Suga began. We learned that she was not potty trained, and that she would only pee on grass. That was tough where we lived, on the side of a mountain in brush and woods. Mike walked and walked her one day until she finally peed, on someone’s lawn! That was the trick.
We both fell immediately in love with her. I remember getting Suga and Juliette out of my car one day after taking them for a hike and before I could get them in the gate Suga looked at Juliette and I said to her “no”, knowing she wanted to take off down the long driveway. She sprinted away, Juliette looked at me and I said “no”, to which she responded by galloping down the driveway to follow Suga. I was right behind them and a couple of minutes, out of breath, caught up to them. Only because they had stopped to sniff.
Suga was, and still is in my heart, the definition of pure love and light. She filled us with love and she gave love to anyone she met.
As a non-profit fundraiser, I have worked for some amazing non-profits. The two where Suga visited the most were a small HIV/AIDS agency, Boulder County AIDS Project, and an agency that serve youth experiencing homelessness, Urban Peak.
I remember Suga loving the BCAP house and running down the stairs from my office to the lobby to greet whoever was coming in the door. She sat on the lap of many a client and visitor and gave her endless love. Imagine coming in to see your case manager or to get an HIV test and having Suga sit on your lap while you wait.
She continued all of this when I arrived at Urban Peak. She loved going to Urban Peak. The young people experiencing homelessness served there adored her and the staff spoiled her. By the end of the day she would be exhausted.
Suga brought joy to us every day. Our lives became so much better because of her. Whether it was a road trip or just a trip to the market, laying on the couch and watching her paw to ask us to keep petting her or just relaxing with her, every second was just perfect. She taught me so much above love, life, family and home.
As far as we could tell she loved California. By the time we moved it was almost a year since she had been diagnosed with congestive heart failure. We knew the day would come, sooner than anything we ever wanted, and did everything we could to keep her heart going. She was on several medications and was doing pretty well. She had episodes, but always bounced back.
Until yesterday.
Today coming home from work I remembered that she would not be throwing her head back while barking to greet me from her perch on the couch. Her perch that gave her a view of her kingdom. She would always greet us as if she hadn’t seen us for days.
In the end, enveloped by me and Mike, she just couldn’t keep on. She was highly stressed trying to just breathe. And so we said goodbye. I sang to her, one of many little songs I would sing to her… “Suga Muga of my dreams…”
Many of you reading this have gone through this same, awful loss. Home is not the same. Coming home can be terrible. One second you can be smiling and the next sobbing. We are crushed and heart-broken. We miss her. The feeling of loss is strong. Knowing she is not just in the next room is terrifying.
The loss is still very new and yet in the midst of the grief I think we both feel a sense of gratitude. I am so incredibly grateful that I was able to know Suga and to have her as part of my life for 11 years. She changed me and helped this broken guy, this guy with a lot of baggage, become even more comfortable with expressing love and to continue to learn about love and compassion.
Thanks for reading.
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